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When I Was A FiEnd

by Matt Blair

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Can you find it in your heart to forgive a broken soul? The story starts, the map is out and again it will unfold Pour yourself a glass of wine and think about the sun The crystal mirrors burst around, explaining all along The darkest of the nights are made here just for you Can you find it in your heart to forgive these blinded eyes? Fearless wonders, consequence, the ones that you despise Obsession of your anger leads to the fall of all but one The one who learns to lead the threat to mirrors of the sun The darkest of the nights are made here just for you A hidden diamond in your mind Obsessive souls worth changing time The darkest of the nights are made here just for you
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Hey you see the girl that cried She sits and waits for next in line Denial sets in on her sweet lips An eager touch of fingertips "Oh won't you let me be" can't you hear her scream? A fortune told for misfortunes had A smile that's lost, that can't be bad Now doesn't that make you feel glad? Hey you see the girl that cried There she stands to read my sign Never turning back does she A broken heart will always be Oh I can't decide, no I can't decide To hold my hand out or to hear you shout I take my hand back with my head up high Yours is low and I hear you sigh Leave a tear to fall upon me And wash away the love that I found near Just take my heart and leave me be Don't call my name because I will not hear Hey you see the girl that cried The rose that's left me torn inside Her thorns will always tear my skin Her heart will only rust like tin Well you're breaking down, always breaking down I won't hold your hand, just you watch me stand The withered flower who put me through hell Fallen from your heart; a petal Leave a tear to fall upon me And wash away the love that I found near Just take my heart and leave me be Don't call my name because I will not hear You see the girl that cried The sun has touched my eyes You see the girl that cried The sun had touched my eyes The sky... Leave a tear to fall upon me And wash away the love that I found near Just take my heart and leave me be Don't call my name because I will not hear Just let me lie and leave me be You'll find I'm not the only one My eyes have been touched by the sun You'll cry emotional defeat Just let me lie, I'm out of reach
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Cryptic 03:33
He couldn't sleep, he couldn't breathe Had some kind of crazy dream Next to his bed, he found a note The words were cryptic and they spoke They spoke In seven years you can't deny The change we made to live a lie No one knows the pain inside That's keeping us alive He stopped the car, he let me out He took a left back into town The thought alone confused his soul Defined his visions to control The life he made and left behind He found the same words in the sky And now he knew the thing to do To follow heart and stay true In seven years you can't deny The change we made to live a lie No one knows the pain inside That's keeping us alive So far out in the distance Old faith, tortured existence It's a shame, like no one would listen Don't hold your breath And now he knew the thing to do Say goodbye and face the truth And now he knew what to do One more thing to say to you In seven years you can't deny The change we made to live a lie No one knows the pain inside That's keeping us alive So alive
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Overwhelmed 05:43
Oh sweet illusion As I'm drugged up and drowsy Oh sweet illusion It takes my time where it allows me Where somewhere unaware There's a lit fuse beyond control The same thing that pushes me away Takes me down, down, down The music's loud and I'm paranoid Turn it down, down, down We'll steal the stars and then break the noise Tear it down, down, down An overwhelming volume voice As it hits the ground I'm overwhelmed Oh sweet delusion It finds the pain so not to drown me Oh sweet conclusion Tear a hole in this world Lets me breathe and in turn forms a destiny Where somewhere unaware There's a lit fuse beyond control The same thing that pushes me away Takes me down, down, down The music's loud and I'm paranoid Turn it down, down, down We'll steal the stars and then break the noise Tear it down, down, down An overwhelming volume voice As it hits the ground I'm overwhelmed So hang these mirrors on your eyes And reflect your reasons away I can't lose, I can't abuse it The music's loud and I'm paranoid Turn it down, down, down We'll steal the stars and then break the noise Tear it down, down, down An overwhelming volume voice As it hits the ground I'm overwhelmed
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The Sound 05:21
Waking up to another day I'm delirious in every way Next time you leave me here, here against my will Ask me if it's wrong to feel accepted or disconnected Face the music Link disabled Don't wanna lose it I feel unstable And if you're watching me point the way out You'll stay corrupted I thought I heard the sound.... Of conciousness Wake me up, take these things away If what I hear is real then I'm insane You might have used this trust if I knew how you felt Aching by yourself, it's anti-social Cue commercial Face the music Link disabled Don't wanna lose it I feel unstable And if you're watching me point the way out You'll stay corrupted I thought I heard the sound.... You crash You burn You run Dissolve Face the music Link disabled Don't wanna lose it I feel unstable And if you're watching me point the way out You'll stay corrupted I thought I heard the sound.... Of realisation
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The Silence 03:51
It goes it goes So slow so slow A fixed design It grows it grows It knows it knows You crossed the line I pace I pace The place the place Somewhere to hide It breeds disease I need to stop and analyse But here it comes It's not the science Maybe the silence It's not that science that's killing me It's not the science I think it's the silence that's killing me It's not the science Maybe the silence It's not the science Maybe the silence It's not the science I think it's the silence that's killing me It goes it goes The ghost the ghost It makes no sound It's old it's old I'm running cold and burning out I pray I pray The same cliche, it's wearing thin And once again I wasting days And fading in So there you go It's not the science Maybe the silence It's not that science that's killing me It's not the science I think it's the silence that's killing me It's not the science Maybe the silence It's not the science Maybe the silence It's not the science I think it's the silence that's killing me When all you want is harmony. No compromise You'll find it harder it harder to believe with your own eyes When what we hear and what we fear are only words You live and learn and hold it in to make it worse
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Well it seems our time is up And I wanted to clear the air Tied to what's in my head Concrete sealed it's fair I tried sleeping alone Ignoring the phone Betrayed my darkest side Now one at a time I'll give you my life It's not like I will lie Maybe it's too late But I know we'll be fine Now it seems I'm all out of luck No time to dwell on that Look forward without turning back And listen to the facts Well in the beginning it was all I could think Of being where I am Now with this I hope You will take it upon yourself to understand Maybe it's too late But I know we'll be fine I smile Lights are Out and Vague we are Except for times of passion Yet, I Owe my soul Undeniably so Maybe It's too late But I know we'll be fine Yeah I know we'll be just fine
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Dem Speedos 02:36
Do you like my speedos? You got that Speedo look in your eye And you know that you want me 'Cause I see you shakin' Saying "Spee-don't you touch me there yet!" Ha! And you know that I'm fine in these Speedos of mine "Don't you look at me monkey boy, 'cause I know you're looking at my monkey" And you know that I'm fine in these Speedos of mine Yeah, Yeah, Yeah
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How Close? 05:26
I'm taking my time Invading your space You're losing mind You're losing your place I'll take what is mine I'm taking my time invading your space, yeah I don't even care You weren't even there Just tell me the side I don't even mind Just tell me the side Yeah I warned you early on in life I grabbed you, taken by surprise Somehow you were able to find the time To do the things you do Try hard now, don't let me hold you back I'm sure now they'll cut you some slack Bye-bye now, get back on track to your life I don't know how we'll get through I'm taking my time Invading your space You're losing mind You're losing your place I'll take what is mine I'm taking my time invading your space, yeah I don't even care You weren't even there Just tell me the side I don't even mind Just tell me the side Yeah Stand up straight, don't look them in the eye Won't think straight with worries on my mind Don't be late, all bets are off this time It's just us against all of them I'm taking my time Invading your space You're losing mind You're losing your place I'll take what is mine I'm taking my time invading your space, yeah I don't even care You weren't even there Just tell me the side I don't even mind Just tell me the side Yeah I warned you early on in life I grabbed you, taken by surprise I told you and now the world is ours It's our time. How close am I to you? I'm taking my time Invading your space You're losing mind You're losing your place I'll take what is mine I'm taking my time invading your space, yeah I'm taking my time You're losing your mind I'll take, what is mine How close are you?
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Insecure 04:46
Well I could see that this could waste our time But I can't help these feelings inside I think I've found the cure for those sleepless nights But now I'm not so sure. Does this feel all right? I don't want it. I will breathe it in this time and then you'll feel the silence Broken hearted, disenchanted love we find but aren't prepared to hide it I sold my soul But I know in time I'll pay But I'm feeling pure, not insecure As if my life would change And I'll keep rolling on until I find my way I've been here long before Wake up my new day I'm fucked in the head I'm dreaming instead of leaving things behind me Will somebody explain how they expect me to leave? I sold my soul But I know in time I'll pay But I'm feeling pure, not insecure As if my life would change I don't want it. I will breathe it in this time and then you'll feel the silence Broken hearted, disenchanted love we find but aren't prepared to hide it I sold my soul But I know in time I'll pay But I'm feeling pure, not insecure But I'm feeling pure, not insecure But I'm feeling pure, not insecure As if my life would change
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Yeah I know what you mean I'm laughing in my dreams And it almost happens more When I think about it This table without legs Ties me down with wooden pegs And I'm staring out the window Trying to talk about it I'm gone, I'm on a quest For what? I don't know, hope for the best And I haven't found the sequel, no I just found the normal people Yeah I know what you mean I like to make a scene When the sun comes up and all you can do is just sing about it I'm gone, I'm on a quest For what? I don't know, hope for the best And I haven't found the sequel, no I just found the normal people And a simple thought is gone For the use of life in day I'll pull my collar up again And I hope to see it through I'm gone, I'm on a quest For what? I don't know, hope for the best And I haven't found the sequel, no I just found the normal people Yeah I know what you mean And I think about it
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Questions 05:33
So this is what it takes to lose control A paper myth evolved from written chalk Can you see yourself involved in something else 'Cause in this mind it me wish that I could help So how did someone let this leader fall? I'm side by side with angels six feet tall Never mess with us, let the turn to dust 'Cause in this mind it makes me feel like I'm alone Ooooh I know that there is something else If only I could lift myself Ooooh If we were ever meant to see the only way it's meant to be We ask no questions We ask no questions here These are the mistakes that light the way Nothing could prepare me for this day Can you hear his voice? He never had much choice 'Cause in his mind he's blind and lied to everyone Ooooh If I was born to see the end I'd have to learn to try again Ooooh If loneliness could ever see the only way it's meant to be We ask no questions We ask no questions here This is what it takes to lose control
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Why do I feel like I've been thrown around? I'm tossed and turned through a labyrinth of sound Blood pumps through my dirty veins Her life is full of nothing but complaints Cruelty plays the part Leaving bite-marks on my heart Why don't you tell me from the start No, don't 'cause it's life And I don't care Why do I feel like I've been thrown around I lost my mind. Could my memories be found Life is like the film said, you watch it, how it ends Making mistakes that will never, never make amends Cruelty plays the part Leaving bite-marks on my heart Why don't you tell me from the start No, don't 'cause it's life And I don't care Why don't you tell me again? I didn't hear you the first time Why don't you tell me again and again and again Oh no Cruelty plays the part Leaving bite-marks on my heart Why don't you tell me from the start? Why don't you tell me from the start?
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The Move 03:18
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You're staring at someone who waste their time The truth is I loved you once and I screwed up twice I drunk the drink and now it's far too late The night is young and I'm past my sell by date What comes up, must come down In any way that can be found You could land or you could fall I'll take the chance and I'll do it all It's like... If all the music in the world were to play at the same time Try and listen carefully and you'll know why you're alive And if all the people in the world were to laugh at the same time Try and listen carefully and you'll know there is no lie Goodbye my friend You're waving goodbye for a little while Six months counting with a teary eye A little present from your London town The place where all your memories are found So every time you hear this song You'll remember just how long Until the time you come back Please remember, you must come back It's like... If all the music in the world were to play at the same time Try and listen carefully and you'll know why you're alive And if all the people in the world were to laugh at the same time Try and listen carefully and you'll know there is no lie Goodbye my friend The bottle ran dry... What comes up, must come down In any way that can be found You could land or you could fall I'll take that chance and I'll do it all If all the music in the world were to play at the same time Try and listen carefully and you'll know why you're alive And if all the people in the world were to laugh at the same time Try and listen carefully and you'll know there is no lie And if all your friends in all the world were to cry at the same time Try and listen carefully and you'll know why you're alive
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Y-Men 04:06
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Well I've been hear for hours I've been here for days I know you said he leads the good life But does he know the way? The streets are cold this time of night And suspicion lurks at day We don't look right and the smell is suspect And people stare either way Waiting... Jeffr'y, do you know the way? I squint and choke on the final pull The dog-end, brown and grey I know you said he leads the good life But does he know the way? The final sip of the metal can is flat. Yo, we should leave My eyes are red and my hands are blue The way I feel you just can't believe Waiting... Jeffr'y, do you know the way? Waiting for Jeffr'y

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released February 19, 2022

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